Weekend Crappiness

Well this weekend was interestingly hard and unpleasant. Ronnie was here....which was the ONLY good thing about it! My brother got back from running errands to his apartment after lunch on Saturday and found his roommate, Taylor Stephenson, dead on the couch. Same thing that happened to Dustin. Obviously, they won't know for sure until the autopsy results come back. I feel so bad for Jeffrey. There is NOTHING like having that happen to you. There is NOTHING like finding that. You will NEVER get rid of that picture in your mind. You NEVER forget how that body feels. Anyways, I left right away when mama called me and drove to Tyler. Jeffrey had to go tell his parents. I got to their apartment as they were carrying out his body. Talk about ripping open a wound and making me feel like I was 4 1/2 years back to my situation. THAT was hard. Even though I am not emtionally connected to Dustin anymore, that situation is still something that I will never be able to erase....all the pain and emotional everything will probably always be there. I never thought that I would have to be in another similar situation like that. I just can't believe that both Jeffrey and I have had to do that. Same situation....another crazy thing: Jeff will be 23 this week, which is the same age that I was when that happened to me. I mean, millions, BILLIONS of people go through life and this is never something that they go through.....and it happened to BOTH Jeff and I. I just think that is the most crazy thing ever. Maybe this is why it happened to me.....so that I can help Jeff deal with it. If that is why, then I would do it all over again because it makes it worth all the pain. Jeff did tell me that the way that I handled my situation helped him know how he needed to handle his. Funeral will probably be Wednesday with a viewing on Tuesday night. I do need strength to get through those 2 things. I will keep you posted on everything.