Tidbits from Grayce

.......WWKD? =What Would Kardashians Do?.....then do the opposite. Lol

Wow! I cannot believe that I am in the last hour of 2011! The older I get, the faster time goes! The day goes by slow, yet I look up, and it's time to get off work, go home, and prepare for the next day......then all of a sudden it's time for the weekend, then time for church on Sunday, then time to start a new week and start the routine all over again.

I am a 29 year old wife, daughter, sister, mama to my animals, aunt, cousin, step mom, friend, coworker, neighbor, role model......crazy to think one person can be so many different things to so many different people everyday.

Every year I look back on the things I have and have not done for the year. I always have regrets and things that I am proud of. I am the type of person that seems to focus more on the things that I have failed instead of the things that I have accomplished. So lets start with the things I have accomplished!

Things I have accomplished: now don't make fun of me, but I was able to get my blood drawn 2 times in one month. Now, I know that sounds retarded, but that is my main unreasonable fear in life, having blood drawn. The 1st time I did it, I went alone! That is like double brave, Lol. I was also able to train myself to run a 5k without stopping and I am NOT a runner. I didn't get any speeding tickets, lol. I have also managed to not wear the same outfit more than 2 times this year.....so vain, yet I am so proud, lol. I broke a habit of not wearing my seatbelt. So now every time I get in the car, I automatically put it on. I have been able to mentally not allow myself to have pride when it comes to apologizing to people. I heard a quote this year, more like a question, that made me put pride into perspective: "What is more important, your pride or the relationship?" When you say that out loud, it's kind of hard to not say you are sorry and mean it. I have broken myself of drinking soft drinks. In a world where giving up is the easiest option and applauded as "well, you gave it your best shot", I celebrated my 4th wedding anniversary with Ronnie. I have managed to not lose my mind in the commute from Dallas to Longview and back every week. I am sure there are other things that I am forgetting....

You know, I am reading back over everything that I consider little personal accomplishments, and I feel like I did nothing. I know that I could do so much more. At least more for other people and less for myself.

My 2011 Regrets: I could have held my tongue a lot more. I know I had many chances to be kinder to people in circumstances. I could have said "I love you" many more times than I did. DEFINATELY could have saved more money......well, no I pretty much needed all the clothes that I bought......I would have never been able to it wear the same thing more than twice! Lol. I know that I could have cussed less, thought less negative things about other people, been more patient, been more giving, more compassionate, more loving, and the list goes on and on! Good grief! What DID I do worth anything?!? Lol

I hate to have New Years Resolutions......why?.....well because it's so cliche! I am so NOT a cliche acting and speaking person. If its cliche, I want to go the other way, say the other thing, make a different impression. I also think that if I need to be doing it, why am waiting til January 1st to start? I don't want to be one of those people that say, "I am gonna go to the gym everyday!"....come on......really?......why start the year off as a liar to your own self....maybe .5% of those people actually keep that resolution.....and it's because they are a celebrity and they have an army of people making their food for them and cheering them on.....they don't live in reality and have to put their own socks on and wipe their own hiney. Lol. So I am not making any New Years Resolutions. I am going to make myself a few promises and goals that I should be doing everyday anyways.

My 2012 promises and goals: to be true to myself. That means a lot of different things.....for different instances and situations. I know in my heart what applies where and what I should be doing. I don't mean that I am picking myself over others.....that isn't what that means. Being true to myself means being true to the woman that I want to be known as. Being true to the legacy that I want to leave one day. I think I leave a mini legacy everyday to the people that I have contact with. I want those people to walk away from me thinking positive things, and hoping that they are that funny and good looking too! Jk LOL. I want to be consistent. I don't want to be that person that you never know what you are going to get. I want to be that woman that thrives under pressure and that you would never know about any hardships in my life. I also read a quote on pinterest....yes pinterest......at least I didn't say on some bathroom wall in some bar.....mainly because I don't remember the last time that I stepped into a bar.....but anyways....it went something like this: "Women are like tea bags, you never know how strong she is until she is put in hot water." I want to be a very potent tea bag. Lol. Not that I like hot water, but I want to know that I can make it no latter how hot or lukewarm the situation is.

Things that I am looking forward to in 2012: my brother getting married, gaining 2 sisters in the process, getting my motorcycle license....yeah I am a bada**, lol, finding out what is wrong with me (calm down, I meant the whole arthritis situation.....not mentally....that will remain a mystery), being able to get back to a normal active life, celebrating my 5th wedding anniversary, turning dirty 30 (lol), Bethany moving to Dallas, continuing to grow my relationship with ronnie, building good relationships with my new sisters, hopefully making some friends in Dallas, blah blah blah......

So I had to let the last post of the year be super boring.......so to make it up to you all, I will leave you with 2 photos that make me laugh.......enjoy!

It's a purple tights kind of day today....

Well people, I finally did it. I went to the doctor. Yes, it had finally come to that....I needed to know what is wrong with me. Many of you are thinking that you already KNOW what is wrong with me....I would probably not disagree with what you are thinking. LOL But, I went to get some answers for all this arthritis and joint pain/ swelling/stiffness that I have had since JULY! Yes, July. Yes, It is December. Yes, I know that I waited a long time to go...but I am the girl that will wait it out until it is gone....and it doesn't matter how long that will take.

I finally just couldn't take it anymore. I was tired of not being able to open my own bottle of vanilla coffee in the morning. Tired of not being able to turn door knobs. Tired of not being able to put my feet in my shoes. Tired of not being able to blow dry my hair....ok, yeah, I didn't blow dry my hair BEFORE this started, but I am using it as an excuse anyways...lol.

I have been afraid that they were going to need to take blood....and I was completely right. They needed to. I have this SERIOUS case of anxiety of needles. I don't know why.I don't think that anything happened as a child....but I do remember feeling this same way AS a child....so it is nothing new. I would rather have the flu than the flu shot. Yes, I am a nut case.....but I am a nut case that doesn't care what you think about it. :)

To make a long story short....crossing your fingers and promising Jesus to not say or even THINK cuss words didn't work. They still needed my blood. I even tried calling on the name of Edward Cullen (he's my boyfriend from Twilight), but since he is a vampire, and I am even more lovely than Bella Swan, once he tasted my blood, he said that he wouldn't be able to stop....so my safest bet was the needle. Well, considering that I am a big girl...I was pretty sure that I could handle it now at the ripe old age of 29. NEWS FLASH......not the case. So 3 nurses and 45 minutes later (there was a lot of crying, hyperventilating, snot, tears, apologizing, involuntary body shaking, more crying, did I mention 3 nurses to try to hold me still....) I BARELY walked out alive...LITERALLY....I had to sit down for a bit because I was going to pass out....they even told me that I looked pale. I tried to assure them that I just haven't tanned in quite awhile...they said it was a different pale...like I was gonna hit the floor pale. LOL.


Anyways....I was finally able to leave....and they are gonna send me a bill for the lab work.....gee thanks...you give me a panic attack, take my blood, and then you are gonna send ME a bill in the mail? Oh boy....I don't even want to know how much THAT will be. In fact, I don't think that I even want to know WHAT is wrong with me....ignorance is bliss. Bliss=no needle and no diagnosis which = no pills to take and no giant bill from the lab.

What, don't believe me? Well check out the gruesome photo below.....you can CLEARLY see where they stabbed me and maimed me for life.....

I am lovin me some pink ombré ends in my hair tonight! Tomorrow, I am thinking purple or peach...

Yummmmmmmm

Happy Birthday to my wonderful beautiful mother! I hope she has a great day today with lots of naps and cake! I love her so very much! She has been my solid rock in life and I don't know where I would be without her! She is the best!

Sent from Grayce Weaver
www.grayceweaver.blogspot.com

Oh Christmas Tree, oh Christmas Treeeeeeeee....how prickly are thy branches....

Ok, so anyone who calls you dumb or stupid or ignorant...please direct them to this video....because they will never call you dumb again....this girl wins the ignorant crown with flying color of stupid glory.....

http://youtu.be/ScgFIKXKFkc

wow.....